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寝て起きてまゆゆまだスマブラやってて草。大会今日だぞ黛。もう寝てもろてって言いたいけど、まゆゆそういうの言われんのあんまり好まないから言わない。でも寝て欲しい…12時間以上やって疲れてない…？

Watching vtubers, especially them playing games, so much lately has made me start feeling like playing actual video games again. A bit at least. I finally got back to playing Pokemon Shield and I'm close to beating it now. I love Raihan, Piers, Bede, and Marnie. They're all so cute. One of the Pokemon I'm using in my team needs to be traded for its final evolution to happen but I can't trade so I am reliving the suffering of no Gengar I had as a child. But this time it isn't because of no friends, it's because I don't want to pay for Nintendo Online.

Maybe now that vtubers are making me feel like playing games again, I'll finally be able to play all the games that I've wanted to play for so long but could never gather the motivation to do.

Ebio had his first 3D stream today. It was cute. He tried his best but he was so nervous. He couldn't stop fidgeting and shifting his weight left and right. It was funny when he took out his sword and tried to do cool heroic poses and ended up repeatedly clipping the sword into his head. Also ebimaru teetee. That game he played towards the end was so bad, lol. According to other listeners it is incredibly on brand for him to play random sh*tty games. I really need to watch him more. There are some people complaining about the stream because it was apparently boring to them. But I think because he is cute all is forgiven.

You may have noticed that I removed the social media links box on my homepage. All of those I had gone inactive on/wasn't really active on in the first place. And I kind of want to distance myself from using social media just because of why not. I did enjoy the time I'd spent on Fedi though. Especially talking to my Neocities mutuals on there. I don't know if you read my journals or not but if so then, hi I still appreciate you. I just didn't really like how much time I would spend on it. And although I did enjoy talking, I'm not good with interactions so there were times I'd get a bit anxious from it.

The only kind of social media thing I'm doing right now is really just my vtuber twitter account that I use to keep up with vtuber related things. And occasionally share random vtuber related thoughts. You can check it out if you want, but if you don't care about Nijisanji vtubers it'll be very boring to look at.


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akina why are you like this?

I feel like taking a short break of just writing about nothing but my otaku media hobbies in here. It's probably pretty boring to read if you aren't also an otaku-kun. So I'm thinking I'll talk a little bit about real world things.

I say that, but I've had next to no contact to the outside world ever since my workplace temporarily shut down because of the plague. Literally the only times I've gone out in months is just to go shopping for food and that's it. I've recently developed a fascination for trying different unusual bottled and canned drinks whenever I go to the local bargain store. They always have a lot of different drinks I never see in the standard bigger stores. My favorites I've tried so far is probably mango soda and this one bottled lychee tea.

I can't think of any other real life things that I care to talk about now... Nothing has happened. I'm just a hermit who never leaves the house. I'm not even really trying to self-quarantine or anything. This is just how much of a homebody I am, lol. If it weren't for the need for food I would happily just never ever set foot outside of my home at all.


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I still really want to make a Mayuyu shrine/fanpage. There's a lot that I want to do with it and I feel like I don't have the coding and image editing/creating skills to achieve what I want though. There's so much one can do with a Mayuyu fanpage because of how absolutely perfect his aesthetic is for the medium and I don't want to half-*ss it. So many vague ideas of cool things I could do with it...

Anyway now for a complete change in topic because I feel like talking about this.

Let me for a moment talk about,
The world of vtuber shipping and my thoughts towards it.

Before I start sharing my thoughts, I must confess that I am a dirty shipper. So this is coming from the perspective of a dirty shipper.

Vtuber shipping is kind of in a weird place because it's a bit close to shipping real people. Shipping real people is definitely something I think of as weird and don't personally endorse. But vtubers (at least in my opinion) exist in this strange realm of being real people and fictional people at the same time, kinda. It kind of varies depending on how heavy or light an individual vtuber's RP is. The level at which the soul(person inside) plays a character and isn't just themself.

I think personally think that shipping vtubers is perfectly fine as long as you obey the proper manners. The proper manners being that you keep your shipping hidden away within your own circles and avoid being able to be easily found and seen by people who aren't into your ship/s. Example: when tweeting about their ship/s, shippers with proper conduct will avoid saying things that could easily come up in searches, like directly saying the vtubers' names. Really that's very normal proper non-canon shipping conduct even regarding shipping of characters from purely fictional works.

I think the important distinction to make to have it not be weird is separating the characters on the surface and the souls within. Shipping their vtuber personas is perfect fine, but if you start like, watching their souls to get together or something, that's a bit gosh darn weird.

Talking about 小難しいこと like a true Mayuzumi listener.

Anyway now that I've written all of that both because the concept of vtubers being both real and fictional at the same time really interests me, and as a way to justify my dirty shameful shipping, let me just say-
Mayuyu and Uiha are way too cute together. Uiha's stream today killed me and many others with the sheer teetee(preciousness) of it. They're just so cute they have the absolute cutest dynamic together... myuiてぇてぇ…。

It kills me every time Mayuyu is doing his usual "I have no friends" shtick or being self-deprecating and Uiha responds like, "That's not true! You have friends! I'm your friend, I care about you!" It makes me feel so warm and happy... Even if you don't ship them in a romantic kinda way, surely you can't deny them being really adorable friends.

Uiha's original song that just got uploaded today is the nicest and sweetest song... I watched it when it premiered and it was so teetee it made me cry. The fact that it was pretty much a birthday present for her from Mayuyu and partially Ars as well is just so sweet... Mayuyu wrote the lyrics for it and it was composed by the composer(Shagma) Mayuyu usually works with. BlueS teetee....... myui teetee............（尊死）


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I bought a bunch of old otome games off Surugaya and they arrived today. Okay, technically two of them aren't otome games. Two of them are romance games that allow you to either play as a boy and romance girls, or play as a girl and romance boys. Also I got my fancy Angelique wallet that I preordered all the way back in like January I think.

And also my Mayuzumi T-shirt. I'm very happy to be able to wear something Mayuyu related on my person. Even though I probably won't wear it much because it's now too precious to me. Maybe I should buy a second one for regular wear?

I really need to make that Mayuyu shrine that I mentioned I might make in my last entry. I've been thinking about it here and there and I think I could really have fun with it. His general aesthetic is so good for making into a retro webpage.

Speaking of Mayuyu, since his 3D reveal he's been using 3D instead of Live2D for his regular streams as well. I am so grateful because most other Nijisanji who have a 3D don't. He's chosen a style like Ange and Ichigo and I am so happy. Thank you so much Mayuyu............ 3D Mayu is so cute it's bad for my heart.


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(context: yesterday when he was streaming DbD his player name was set to SEXY_HOT_GIRL)

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Hello. I'm back again after two months. I suddenly felt a strong urge to write here again.

Maybe some of you remember the blog post I made about vtubers a long time ago? Probably not. Anyway, I've gotten into watching vtubers again. And this time I've gotten over my irrational distaste for Live2D vtubers.
A friend got into watching the Hololive girls, and spurred by curiosity I discovered the Holostars boys. Seeing them I decided to ignore my Live2D hatred and give them a chance. And then... I got into watching Nijisanji vtubers instead.

There's quite a few Nijisanji livers I like, but there is one who I like probably 5 times more than any other vtuber.

He's Mayuzumi Kai. In a short time I have completely turned into a
黛ガチ恋限界オタク。
If it weren't for him, and what happened today I probably wouldn't have come back to write something here for a while longer.

He got a 3D body, and had his 3D reveal livestream earlier today. And I am feeling so thankful right now that I had become a fan of him in time to get to experience a moment like this in real time. The main part of the stream was so funny and cute. And then the C and D parts blew me away.

I originally just started watching him because I liked his voice, his general demeanour, and thought he was pretty funny. But the rabbithole was far deeper than that...

If I can stop being lazy for a short amount of time I would love to make a shrine page for him. No promises though.

I'm going to dump some favorite screencaps from the C and D parts of his 3D stream so SPOILER WARNING. Also the original(nearly certain its original) song that plays during the C part is so pretty.


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P.S.
I really need to get around to watching Lain.

the one year anniversary of my website is in two days. a week ago i was planning on maybe doing something special for it, but then i put off preparing anything and now it's only two day until then. i could probably pull something off in two days... but am i going to? probably not i'm lazy. i'll probably just put up a celebratory message on the home page.

i finished Tlicolity Eyes Vol 2. i really enjoyed it actually. i'll do that impressions page for the game i swear. probably.

my best friend's been making really nice videos about obscure old video games. i really enjoy them since i like learning about weird old things. if you're interested in that type of content definitely check out his latest video.

also i finished my first run through of the current Touken Ranbu event. it's definitely the best event yet. the event maps have a whole 3 different songs original to the event, and all the songs are so good i could listen to them for ages. the last boss theme in particular is really gorgeous. the event's story is really good and interesting. i was stupid and forgot to bring Kasen when i did my run of the event, but i just finished watching a compilation video of all the event scenes, watching the ones with regular Kasen and kiwame Kasen. dang i really missed a lot of details without Kasen in my team... i bet i would've enjoyed the story even more if i was more into japanese history and could actually understand the old time-y poetry.

as someone who's been playing swords since the very beginning. it really makes me happy to see how much swords has progression. it's come so far from having absolutely no events or new content added during the first 6 months after it's release. other mobage have literally shut down sooner after releasing than it took swords to do something lmao. before the first story event in october of 2018 (keep in mind swords released in january of 2015) the only resemblance of story that was in swords was all of the swords individual citadel, battle, internal affairs, etc lines. the short special battlefield interact lines, and the special internal affairs interactions. all those lines and scenarios mostly just taught players about the characters and not much about the setting itself at all. then the first story event landed and it was just like "we're gonna raise a whole bunch of questions and answer none of them haha." i kind of really like the mysteriousness of the setting though.

anyway i just spent literally hours just looking at swords fanart


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why do my entries keep ending up so long-winded? (this will too probably)

the new Touken Ranbu event started and they added two new swords you can get from it. i am in love with one of those new swords. look at him. please look at him. he's so beautiful. he talks in poems most of the time so i can hardly understand a word he says, but i love him. also the music that plays in the new event maps is soooo pretty. i really really love the touch of the church bells in the song.

A month or two ago i couldn't stop listening to Zetsuai music, and now i can't stop listening to the Earthian albums. if anyone knows of any other bl manga that got image albums in the 80s/90s/ please let me know. the music for these two have no right to be as good as they are. also please hit me up if you have the third Earthian album i don't recall seeing it where i got the first and second. my favorite Earthian song is Secret Blue on the second album because it's so funky and cheesy, and my favorite Zetsuai song is Calekka.

thinking about reviving my play log page. if i do they will be a lot shorter than my page for haruka3 was lol. i say this but i tend to ramble so maybe they won't be shorter. as i think i said with my haruka3 page, they won't be reviews. it'll just be my impressions/opinions or whatever on the games. i'm not cut out for reviews i'm too dumb for that. but i wanna talk about the games i play and i don't know, maybe some one would want to hear my thoughts? from what i hear about them, it seems like the well known popular english speaking otome game reviewers aren't that good themselves. that's just me repeating what 4chan says though, i've never read reviews from any of the popular reviewers.

if i do revive that page i'll probably start with Tlicolity Eyes. i bought it a few days ago. i felt like playing an otome game on my Switch so i bought it. i kinda considered getting Olympia Soiree since it's the hot new game on the street, but decided against it. there's no point in getting the hot new thing when i have too few otome player friends to know anyone else who got it so i couldn't really talk about it anyway. so why not just get an older game i've been interested in for a while. also maybe i just felt like playing a dumb cute little game instead of a way more plot-heavy one. i've already finished vol.1 of the game and just started on vol.2. it's successfully met my expectations of a dumb cute little game. i'll talk more about it if i ever do revive my playlog page i guess. i probably will.

in conclusion, i miss the 90s and otome is a dead hobby.


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I've had enough of social media. At least for the time being.

There's no dramatic reason I've decided this. I just started to feel sick of how much time i would waste on it. I used to use Twitter very actively, but steadily used it less and less. I completely stopped maybe nearing a month ago now.

I'm slightly worried about it because I have some reasons I mostly only interacted with on there recently, and I'm too useless to slide into DMs. I dont want to continue using the website i no longer want to use just because of that though. i wonder if that makes me a bad friend. maybe.

Sometimes I grow to miss the time when I had no friends, real life or online. Of course if I really wanted to I could easily go back to that. But it wouldn't be the same now that I know what it's like to have friends.
I wish I weren't a super introvert who very easily gets overwhelmed by regular social interactions. I attempt to act more personable in online interactions but really it's very draining.

i don't think i've ever gone into this much detail talking about this subject with anyone, it's pretty easy to write about it here because i'd be surprised if anyone actually reads these entries in full lol.

SUDDEN SUBJECT CHANGE

i've been reading a bunch of isekai manga the past week or so. the women target audience ones. i know isekai is mostly a bunch of cute dumb wish fulfilment schlock. but goddamn do i like cute dumb schlock honestly. also i really appreciate these manga bringing back the trope of beautiful/handsome mysterious man with long black hair. if you look at my husband you can tell i like that trope haha. thank you isekai manga. if anyone's interested in checking out women's target audience isekai, the anime adaptation for the first modern joseimuke isekai LN is airing right now. it's called hamefura/my next life as a villainess. it's pretty cute. in trying to prevent her death, the protagonist ends up unwittingly building herself a harem of both boys and girls, and she's too thick to realise it. despite being dense she's a fun protagonist though. I'd be part of her harem.

maybe since i've abandoned social media i'll actually update this journal more often. i wish i could abandon discord too but i don't want to lose ALL of my friends.


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wow two posts in one week look at me go

my sleep schedule has been totally ruined in the past week. i have my good morning at 3 pm. i'm feeling kinda ok in the moment today. but not super great overall because lately i've been in that kinda 『i should just seclude myself away from my friends it's not like anyway cares if i'm around or not. its not like anyone cares what i would talk about even if i were there i'll just let them all have fun without me』 mood. it kinda sucks lol. wish my brain weren't such a troublesome b*tch.

anyway i moved from my masto instance to a new acc on a pleroma one. follow it or just check it out if you want to.

i'm gonna play ffxiv and grind in the touken ranbu event to chase away my unhappy feelings and pretend they don't exist.


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bubbles appear on the surface of the water ripples start to form and spread forth seconds later i burst out of the depths get to shore cough profusely and then breath in the deepest breath ive ever breathed.


hey i'm back.

wow i havent updated this website since november of last year lol. its been way too long, and what a better time to start again then when i dont really have much else to do at all what with current world events. i hope all you other neocitizens are doing well despite things.

anyway mayhaps you have noticed that ive changed up my writing style a bit. im probably going to stick with this style from now on. idk why but when i first started i felt like being a little different than i usually am? like just with my friends. like i dont usually use that much proper grammar. i was kinda like playing up a bit more serious than i usually am. i started getting tired of that and thinking `why am i typing like this again?` after a while but felt itd be kinda unnatural to just stop all of a sudden so i just kinda kept typing like that. but now i am like whatever who cares i dont. im just gonna type like i do when i talk with my friends.

where have i been so long thank you for asking. got a job a while ago doing [REDACTED] at [REDACTED] so thats been pretty physically and mentally tiring. but like a week and a half back [REDACTED] temporarily shut down cause of you know what so i have nothing to do now but stay inside babee. i am really enjoying spending my time thinking i should be using it to do something productive like learn a useful skill and then just playing ffxiv, otome, watching youtube, having a staring contest with my twitter tl, or whatever the heck else it is i spend all day doing.

this post is long i have more to talk about probably but im leaving it here. again hope everyone is doing well :)

bored so picture of the day mite do this again mite not:

(fun fact its been so long i totally forgot the simple code of inserting images)

It sure has been a long while. I should stop even mentioning that though since the last few of my posts have been pretty spaced out.

It's just been the same old, same old. I finished the main scenario of ffxiv up to 5.0 (Shadowbringers) and it was absolutely amazing. I love all of the main characters. ShB is definitely my favorite expansion. I don't know how they'll ever top themselves when the next one eventually comes along.

I really wish I wasn't neglecting this site as much as I am. I really want to add more, but I'm lacking in inspiration and motivation. :(
I really want to get a Japanese PS2 so I can play Neoromance games on it. And other otome from that era as well. I've managed to find rips of the games that I can use on an emulator. But unfortunately a lot of them are buggy and have display issues. Or maybe my settings on the emulator are just wrong. But even disregarding that, some of them have framerate issues on my PC as well. ;-;
Especially Angelique Trois, which I'm really sad about. It's why I still haven't played it much yet. Haruka 4 slows down a bit too in the battles that have more enemies in them and it's horrible because the audio slows down as well and it sounds dreadful. I don't want to experience the games for the first time like that. So I'm planning to probably get a Japanese PS2 soon. I already physically own Haruka 4, Angelique Trois, and Etoile as well anyway haha.

I've been playing through Hanayaka Nari, Waga Ichizoku and it's really good. I might write a Dreamwidth post about it when I'm finished. If I do write that post, I might put up the contents of it on a page in the otome section of this website too. It'll be preserved better that way and not get buried in posts eventually just being on my Dreamwidth.

Hello Neocities. Despite the total lack of updates for nearly a month, I'm not dead (yet).

I've been really lacking in motivation to do such frequent updates to my site as I had in the past. I really want to but then I just end up doing other things instead. Oops. I'm hoping I'll find the motivation again soon to do more than just boring journal updates. And no, I haven't given up on making that special page for my trip yet. I'm still very slowly working on it. The main reason I hadn't made any journal updates for so long is because I felt like I shouldn't until I got that finished. But I decided that whatever it's my site I can do what I want in whatever order I want.

In more general news, There's a Neoromance Discord server now. It was made by someone really recently. It's so nice to be able to talk with other English speaking Neoromance fans now. Even if the server is really small and currently only has 9 other members besides myself. It's a really comfy little server so far.

Also finally got around to downloading a PS2 emulator and have been checking out a whole bunch of PS2 era otome games. Started playing Haruka 4 and it's amazing. It's such a shame that a lot of the rips seem to be kinda bugged... Or maybe there's something wrong with my emulator settings, I don't know. I haven't changed them at all from the default. Haruka 4 seems totally fine, but then Angelique Trois and Meine Liebe are sorta iffy, and then Corda 1 is just way too hecked for me to want to play it like that.

Well, that's kinda all I wanted to say for now. Hopefully I'll start updating this site more often. If I don't, and any of you guys really miss me (dunno why you would but) I've continued to be pretty consistently active on Mastodon. Maybe I don't toot everyday but I usually still check it most days.

Hello! I got safely home from my trip on the 16th! I was thinking that I wouldn't make any journal entries until I've finished the page that documents my trip, but that might be a while. It might take a bit more effort than I was expecting and I'm lazy. Also my boyfriend is coming to visit for a week and he's arriving tonight. So I'm going to be pretty busy hanging out with him and going around places together. But I swear I'm gonna finish it! Just not for other people to read it but for myself as well. I want to remember this trip. I want to be able to read about it later and recall all the fun memories. My memory isn't the best so it really is good to write it all down.

So what have I been doing since I got back? Sleeping! Sleeping and doing Angelique related stuff (big surprise). I go all the way to Japan to enjoy doing Neoromance and Angelique stuff, and then once I get back I just do even more, haha. I've had several different hyperfixations in the past but I don't think any of them have ever been this severe.

I'm just
Angelique mania.

And the other Neoromance series too but it's mostly Angelique.

I watched Seichi Yori Ai wo Komete. It was pretty ridiculous I loved every moment. Apparently that OVA is part 2 of the three part Gemme Stories series. The first part being a manga that was originally serialised in Love Love Tsuushin (the official Angelique Magazine) and later released as a one-shot manga volume. And part 3 is actually the Angelique Gaiden 4 drama CD. I'll have to read/listen to those eventually. I was planning on doing that anyway though.

Also I watched all the Twin Collection OVAs. Twin Collection is a series of 8 short Angelique OVAs. Each one opens and ends with a different music video for characters songs original to the OVA series. One unique song for each character. Inbetween the MVs are short roughly 10 minute episodes involving mainly the two characters featured in the opening and ending MVs.

My favorite is the 7th part of the series. Which is actually the Marcel and Sei-Lan one. Neither of them are among my favorite characters. So maybe it's weird that it was my favorite. But Sei-Lan's MV is so amazing I can't stop rewatching it. And the short episode was so wholesome, sweet, and adorable that I cried. I always knew that Marcel was a really sweet boy, but now I really like Sei-Lan a lot more than I did before.


Okay..... I will say something that happened at the event before I finish the big dedicated page.
THEY ANNOUNCED A NEW ANGELIQUE GAME!!!!!
I couldn't hold myself back and just cried in the audience when it was revealed. That's okay though because I'm sure I wasn't the only one.
It's going to be set in a new Cosmos, and there'll be a new cast of Guardians in that Cosmos. So the current main characters will probably all, or mostly, be demoted to side characters. That's a little saddening. But I guess thinking about the future of the series it's probably for the best. The current cast of voice actors aren't getting any younger. I'll really miss the original character designer Yura Kairi too. I love her art and designs.

I'm also scared that it might overly leaning towards a visual novel-esque format. I hope that the game elements of it will keep the heart of the original games.

Maybe I'm speaking a tiny bit negatively but that's only because I really care about the series and only want the best for it.

Another important key factor I haven't mentioned yet is,
the boys.
Hopefully the new characters will be just as great and loveable as their predecessors are. I'm worried but I want to remain optimistic. It's going to be on the Switch so here's hoping for 3D graphics!!!! (not gonna happen cause there ain't enough demand for 3D in otome games and I guess pngs are easier to do. basically we cant have nice things)

I'm finally heading off to Yokohama tomorrow! I have to get up really early in the morning to catch my bus to the airport so I'll be going to bed right after this goes up.

Once I get home I'll probably make a special page for the trip like I said before.

I'm going to bed really early but I'm so excited and nervous at the same time I have no idea if I'll actually be able to sleep. I hope so though because it's a long trip and I'm no good at sleeping while sitting in a seat.

Hopefully everything will go to plan and I won't mess up majorly or die.

If I do die hopefully it'll be after I've gone to all the events so at least I can die happy.

I made a Dreamwidth account. It seems a whole lot like Livejournal. I actually made a Livejournal account back in 2013 but then never really used it at all. I'm not actually sure what the difference in functionality is between Dreamwidth and Livejournal (if there is one) but it seems nice so far. I've only made two posts on it but I'm planning to make more eventually. That doesn't mean I'll stop posting here though. I think I'll be using Dreamwidth for posts that are more focused on specific things. My posts here tend to be pretty rambly...

In other news I've finally finished a playthrough of Angelique Tenkuu no Requiem. I got the Clavis ending and the Arios ending. Clavis' ending was really cute but also pretty sad. And incredibly vague spoilers but Arios' ending was just really sad. I think he might be my second favorite Angelique character now.

Since I finished TenkuRequ I also finally watched the Shiroi Tsubasa no Memoir OVA. I'm pretty sure it was the first Angelique anime. It's the animated story of events that happen inbetween TenkuRequ and Trois. It was a nice enough OVA. I definitely think that people who haven't played the games wouldn't enjoy it. It was definitely meant for people who already know what happened in TenkuRequ.

I've started playing a bit of Angelique Retour (the 2015 remake of the first game) when I'm bored in bed at night again. It feels so weird playing it again after I've been playing all of the older games. It's really a shame what they did to Olivie in Retour. He's so toned down in it. I love the Olivie in the old games who cakes on makeup and wears dresses and highheels and is like your dependable big sisterbrother. In retour he's just a kind of a more in touch with his feminine-side guy who wears a bit of makeup. The way Koyasu voices him in Retour is even toned down a lot. I want a full-voice Angelique game with the old Olivie...

My trip to Japan is in less than 5 days and I am internally losing my mind.

Happy birthday to me.

I'm accepting birthday gifts in the form of drawings of Clavis Angelique.

Wow it's sure been a long time since my last entry. I need to update my website more.

So... About the title of this entry. Yes it's true. I'm going for a really short super last minute trip to Japan on the 12th of September. In a bit less than 2 weeks. Why am I doing something so rash? ANGELIQUE AND NEOROMANCE OF COURSE! The Neoromance 25th anniversary and Angelique Memoir 2019 live stage events have been announced for a little while now, and I wasn't planning on going originally. Because, you know, trips to Japan can be pretty dang expensive. I was planning on just buying the recorded DVD release of the event when that came out. But then Ruby Party went and said there's not going to be video releases for either of them! Everyone in the JP Neoromance fandom is so disappointed about this, and I was just crushed. It's such a big milestone they really should. They have in the past. And even though I'm going now, I'm still sad about it. A lot of us Neoromancers who are going would still love to be able to buy the DVD and relive moments from the events...

I'm ridiculously excited about the trip. But I'm also really scared about it at the same time. This is going to be my first time traveling farther than even a one hour's drive away from home all by myself. And I'm so hopeless at doing unfamiliar things and being in unfamiliar places alone. Hopefully I don't die. If I do die I guess this website will make a nice memorial for people to remember me by.

I think I'll try to take lots of pictures during the trip and make a special page documenting it when I get home. There'll probably be so much I won't want to stuff it all in one of these journal entries.

Also my boyfriend made a really neat video about an obscure weird old tactical pinball game. Check it out if you like videos showcasing weird old games.

I've finally gotten back to playing Angelique Tenkuu no Requiem. And hopefully I'll be able to complete it this time and not get stuck half way through the game with no idea what to do next! I actually bought the old official game guide to it so hopefully that shouldn't happen now! I'm playing the PS1 version instead of the PC-FX one this time. There's actually a lot of changes between the versions. It's mostly all minor stuff. But they totally cut out how you recruited Mel in the original version :(. Poor Mel. I hope you still get to go to his planet at some point anyway. You got to learn so much about his race talking to the NPCs there, it was so interesting. It's actually kind of weird because the other ports of Angelique games to different consoles I've found don't really change the at all. It's just Tenkuu no Requiem for some reason. I adore that there are more cutscenes with Reviath's subordinants on PS1 though. They're so interesting I love them and I love getting to learn more about them. Reviath and all of them have two pages in the game guide giving you their ages and brief descriptions of what they're like and some of them even a brief description of their past. It's so good I'm really glad I bought the game guide. It also has how their names are spelled in English letters so I don't have to just guess anymore! This might change later but right now Eugene and Walter are my favorites.

Also hey if you feel like it, say hi to me on Windows Live Messenger/Escargot or whatever. I want to talk to more people on it. It's really neat.

Also x2, I might have a little bit of free time while I'm in Japan for the events. I'm going to be staying in Yokohama since that's where the event hall is. If anyone knows of some cool places to go there I'd really appreciate it if you shot me an email (my email's on the homepage) or a message on WLM or Mastodon or whatever. A neat place to eat or something would be super cool.

Thanks for reading :)

I've totally forgotten to log into Escargot/WLM/MSN for the longest time and if you're one of the two people who had added me while I'd forgotten about it I'm sorry I'll be good now (hopefully). Please feel free to message me on there.

It's been quite a while since I've written anything in here. Mainly due to that all the stuff I used to write about in here, I've mostly just been tooting about on Mastodon lately. I'm sort of not entirely sure what to write about in here. Maybe I should write about stuff that happens in my daily life here? Nothing happens in my daily life really.

I guess I could talk about changes I've made to my site. In particular the new about page. It contains the first thing I've drawn in months it ain't great but please appreciate it. Despite appearances it actually took me hours to draw since I'm very slow and out of practice. That's actually my very first drawing I've ever colored (with relatively successful results). I'd attempted coloring like two drawings in the past but they did not look good.

Also I made it perhaps slightly cringey on purpose for that classic anime fan's website aesthetic.

Alsox2 I need to update my Haruka 7 page with the revealed character designs... I'll get to that..... Soon.........

Doing cryptic journal entries is fun. I just posted the previous entry with no context, but it's actually a shoddy translation I did of one of my favorite Angelique vocal songs. It's a really nice duet song sung by Julious (CV: Hayami Sho) and Clavis (CV: Shiozawa Kaneto ;-;). I really like the lyrics of the song, and while I was bored I decide to just go ahead and translate it. I'm still no good at translation. Understanding the words themselves is the easy part, actually putting them in English is what's really difficult... I'm bad at English. Goes to show what having no formal education in it gets you, I guess.

If I decide to do more little translations for Neoromance/otome stuff I might make a page for it in my website's otome games section. We'll see.

In other news there's a free login campaign going on for Final Fantasy XIV so I've been playing it again. It's really fun. I should fork over the cash for a subscription again next time I can afford it. I need Shadowbringers too but... Expensive...

I've been wanting to figure out a way to actually end these journal entries instead of just stopping abruptly. But everything I can think of just comes off as super awkward in my head.

Oh well, see you later I guess.

Today too, the morning comes. And a new light is born. Changing yesterday's worries into the strength for living.

As time gently passes, twilight falls. Soothing tired souls as day becomes night.

And so, time will continue flowing. And yesterday's you will be reborn anew. If you hold hope within your heart, then surely now you will see the sun is rising once more.

Those who have endured a harsh winter will learn of the warmth of Spring.

Those who have experienced Summer storms will relax their bodies into the gentle breeze of Autumn.

Aah, this beautiful system. The passage of time is a treasure of all people equally, a dear companion.

Woken up by day, embraced by night. Today too your life is being sustained by this beautiful course of logic.

Time flows the same for all. To give every person a chance to shine.

The sorrows of yesterday will become silent memories of tomorrow. Go to the kingdom of slumber, and dispel those memories into the darkness.

And so, the passage of time is filled with kindness. Washing away the tears of yesterday. If you hold that kindness close to your chest, soon enough, the sun will rise again within your heart.

Sorry that I haven't really been updating my website that much lately. I swear I haven't forgotten about it and I've totally been meaning to do more updates. I've just been a bit distracted.

I ordered a Neoromance event CD over 2 weeks ago and it's finally arrived today. I'm so happy. It's so good.

A bonus came together with the CD. I'm stupid and don't read things properly so I didn't even realise I would be getting a bonus! It's called a calendar but it's really just a bunch of separate cards with dates on them, pictures of the boys, and lines from them. It's pretty simple but it's very nice for a free extra. I particularly enjoyed the line on the 13th day card. It was Clavis on that card so, big surprise I liked that one the most.

I love both of the songs. They're new solo songs sung by Angelique's Julious (voiced by Hayami Sho) and Harukanaru 3's Hinoe (voiced by Takahashi Naozumi). It also includes short messsage tracks from the characters, and commentary(free talk) tracks from the voice actors. At the start of Hayami's free talk he marvelled "it feels like it's been such a long time since I've last sang a new Julious solo song." He didn't have a song in the Retour CD, so unless I've missed any other little event CDs like this one it's probably been over 10 years since the last one maybe.

Also I've been distracted with playing Fire Emblem Three Houses. I didn't have money to buy it but a good nice friend who I love very much bought it for me. I've been playing a lot every day for several days but I'm not even half way through the game yet...

Here's a picture of my favorite character so far from Three Houses sipping tea


Also can I add that it was co-developed by both Intelligent Systems and Koei. On Twitter I saw a lot of Japanese people coming it to Neoromance games, especially Angelique. I hadn't actually known it was co-developed by Koei until someone pointed out that Koei having to do with the development is probably the reason there are similarities.

I need to update the website more. Is what I say, but knowing myself it'll could easily end up being a while until the next update.